Breathing

I've been feeling so grateful, so in love with life. 

Joy is such an amazing feeling when I have an idea of how to embrace it and sit with it.

I've been in such a limbo state with my thoughts/emotions for the past month now and just recently I've broken out of that middle ground. Not to say the middle ground isn't a good place to be, but I'm not built for it. I've been so confused and it was very exhausting to just be in the middle.

Not knowing why.
Not knowing why.

Maybe I got to the point where I started to feel numb.
Maybe I became tired of all this suffering, all this hate.
Maybe I came to a point where I realized that no matter what, I can't stop this pain.

I have to remember that my emotions are just passengers, they come and go, and they will sit with me as long as I let them steer. I always have a say. And I have a say in this suffering, I feel enlightened every single day when I just look around me. I feel alive, and that suffering is less painful.

Breathing in, I come back.
Breathing out, I realize that I can help.
Breathing in, I realize that by living a peaceful life, I can ease the suffering of others around me.
Breathing out, I am full of joy.