Venture to the West

I've been feeling so trapped in my own body and in my own mind for days.
I feel sad, tired, and afraid.

It's the most suffocating feeling to keep so many strong emotions here, with me, when I just want to be able to share them with the one person that is the reason for these sleepless nights, this constant longing.

I'm supposed to know how to embrace joy, I do, everyday I am but what if one of my greatest joys isn't here anymore? All the peace that you brought me, gone in a matter of decisions, so how do I find them?

I want to be able to take this as it is.
I want to be able to accept all of it.
I want this to be over.

I'm tired of crying.
I'm tired.

This takes time.
I have to remember.
It takes time.
I know.